Wat did I do? D;

I love my girlfriend. I think about her day and night. 24/7. I'm always trying to be the best boyfriend ever to her and always making her happy. I feel so miserable and guilty right now. I know this reason could be small or whatever, but I just feel so bad.. We were talking on msn, and I fell asleep on her! I feel so fucking bad now. Once I woke up again, I looked at the time, and just told myself, "I am soo sorry Nicole." I know that this might be a stupid reason, but now I can't sleep again. Needless to say, I'm at that point already where I feel like shit, I'm about to cry, and heart is actually hurting that it's affecting my breathing pretty bad. Like I literally can't breathe so good. I am soooo sorry Nicole for this. I'm sorry for doing that to you D; I just felt like blogging it because I just can't get it out of my mind now.. I love you, Nicole Ashley Chargualaf <3 /;

1 Month Down, Forever To Go

Well, I woke up in a really good mood today. Why you ask? Because it's Nicole and I's ONE MONTH since we've been together! Nothing was able to kill my mood today, and alot of pretty bad things happened to me today xP First of all, someone stole my locker padlock so now I can't even use my locker. Then during ROTC drill. It was super hot out and my platoon got dropped -_- Then after that. I missed my bus. AGAIN. haha. Well none of that ruined my day. When I first woke up. The first thing in my mind was Nicole. She is my everything. I love her more than I love anything in the UNIVERSE. I know it's only been a month, but I also know that we will last forever. Together. I want to wake up in the morning everyday seeing her right next to me. I know that will happen one day. And I am waiting for that day. Man, I just couldn't stop thinking about her! Today, I filled up a whole page with just writing her name, hearts and everything xD I just love her so much! And I will never stop loving her. Man, I am like super super happy!!! It's our one month!!! Whoooooo haha. I promised myself that everyday I will call her. I can't sleep without saying I love you to her. I just feel so incomplete without saying that. She's awesome. She's the best thing that has ever happened to me! She just makes me so happy. If you ever ask me to write down or say whatever's in my mind, this is what I would say, "Nicole. Nicole. Nicole" because she's the only one in my mind all the time. I love you Nicole Ashley Chargualaf!!! <3

iTouch 2

Nicole and GW..

Man, I just can't stop thinking about her. Today was the best day ever. I got to be with her, and everything we just did today I really enjoyed. Once she had to go though, it's like someone just stabbed me in the heart. I just felt really sad because after a day like this, I just wanted to stay with her forever. I was never tough enough to tell her, but like everytime she texted someone, I just felt like she didn't really care about us at the moment. I know I texted as well but like she just texted away when I felt like something was just going to happen. Something "magical" of you would say. I'm so sorry for saying that. But yeah. I sometimes get pretty jealous during that moment when she's like talking or conversing with other guys. I mean like I'm not really the jealous type, or the romantic type, but like when she starts talking to a guy or txting one, I just feel kind of sad because like I just want to spend the whole day with her and her only. Ah, i don't know what I'm saying. I really love her and I wouldn't ever want to lose her. After today, calling her. Hearing her voice just makes me miss her so much and I just feel like crying. Cuz I'm like manly and all. xD Man, thinking about her hurts. Especially since I think about her 24/7 it hurts even more. I really want to go GW and I would do anything to go there. I've tried begging, getting my grades to suck, and even asking my brother for help, but nothing will change my parents mind. They just don't get it. I don't know why, but I really really love Nicole. I'm just writing this thing and I'm already crying over Nicole because just think of her makes me miss her so much D; I just want my parents to at least give GW a chance. I mean like I really don't plan on going to Yale like my brother, as long as I get to go to a good college and as long as I can go to med school so I can follow my fldream to be a doctor. I mean come on. At least give GW one semester. if my grades drop, send me back to FD. But if they actually get higher, then please oh please make me stay. I mean I only stay at FD because that's what my parents want. I would do anything to go to GW. I just want to be with Nicole as much as I can ): Please. My parents. They fell in love in high school, and they ended up successful after. I just can't stand not being with Nicole. I even think that my grades will worsen during this school year because I don't think I'm gonna be able to focus without Nicole with me. She makes me just want to be better at everything. I love her with all my heart.

iTouch 1

Well, I'll be posting the stuff I have on my iTouch.
I usually just write there so i'll just copy it onto here :P

Heres itouch post #1
NAC <3
Man, I just can't stop thinking about her. Everywhere I go, she just always pops up in my head. I really love her. I would never ever want to lose her. If we break up, I know I will be the most heartbroken person ever. I would just give up on love altogether if that ever happened. I really care about her and she really cares about me too. That's why I love her. I just want to be with her every second I think of her, which means every second of my life. Nicole Ashley Chargualaf. Who knew that she would be the one that I would truly love? The one that I would want to spend my whole life with. Just the two of us, together, forever. Everytime I close my eyes. I just think about our kiss. Our first kiss, and also our most "magical" kiss at Macy's. I honestly loved that and I didn't want to stop. I just want to hold her in my arms right now >_<" I just miss her so much! It will even be worse when school starts, but hey. I learned something. No matter how often we see each other, I know that we will love each other forever. That's why I just look forward to the next time I see her and not worry about how long it will be until we meet again, because I'll just be happy that we are actually going to see each other again and have the best day ever together. I really really love her. I know that she IS the one. I just want to be with her so bad. Ahh, I'm repeating myself. I just really want to be with her. She's always in my mind and nothing will ever replace her. She is always the number one person that I care about the most. Everyone knows that I really really LOVE chocolate, but I even told Nicole. Nicole > Chocolate. I learned that I should forget about the past and just be glad about the present. I learned that because through all of my past relationships, they have all taught me to be better at it and never to be shy around her, never ever make her lose the love we have between us, and to just always be yourself when your with her. Just relax and think of the good things that can happen when your with her. I love you Nicole, and I know that I will never ever lose you. You just mean so much to me. Ah, I feel so emotional right now I don't know xD. I'm like so happy that we love each ther alot and that I get to see you, but I get sad because I always want to be with you every second of my life and we can't do that yet. I just miss you so much. Ah, I just want to be with her. Damn I'm always thinking about her. She is always on my mind 24/7. Everyday I write little by little about her. It just gets my mind off of things every time I write. Ah, Nicole Nicole Nicole. I love saying that name xD I promised her that I will never ever break her heart, and I will keep that promise. Being with Nicole is the best feeling I can ever have. I just can't stop thinking about her.
I love you, Nicole Ashley Chargualaf <3

First Post! :D

Sup all, This is Julio! Close friends call me Jolo, cuz im cool like that :P
Umm first blog will just be introducing me i guess xD
Umm I have this awesome girlfriend by the name of Nicole Ashley Chargualaf <3
I love her :P
My sports are Basketball and Paddling.
I live in Guam! That is an island in the Earth if you guys didnt know that.
I go to this awkwardly gay all guy school of Father Duenas :P
And I love chocolate! :P
Umm most of my posts will be just whats in my head at the moment so yeah. DONT JUDGE ME! xD